Mark Cahill

A few weeks ago I went to hear Mark Cahill speak in Lilburn GA. Mark is the one who wrote "One Heart Beat Away"

Mell and Robert and I had met him once before.

Now he knows who I am!

Mell's 3 Month Home Going

Mell's brother Doug Made a cross for the Crash Site and we

put it there today …His 3 month anniversary of his Home Going…

The crash site looks like a cave now with the trees surrounding the place where the plane went into the wooded area…

It seems like 3 years for me since Mell went home to be with our Savior…this has been the

longest 3 months of my life…

the ladies in my grief group were talking about their visiting the grave site on an anniversary of the death of their husbands and I said " I don't have one" there were others who don't have grave sites…

but I thought I have a crash site…and when I was driving down Old Peachtree again…I saw crosses along the way where people have been killed and thought…" I could do that at the crash site for Mell…so with handy dandy "Doug" we pulled it off…the lady who owns the house said it was ok…and now we have a place to visit when we need to go there and today I needed to go there…it was somewhat harder today to visit the site than in the past…I don't know why…but it was…

My Song To Mell

God is Good

Psalm 40

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;

he turned to me and heard my cry.

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.

3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

4 Blessed is the man
who makes the LORD his trust,
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods. [a]

5 Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.

6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire,
but my ears you have pierced
burnt offerings and sin offerings
you did not require.

7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come—
it is written about me in the scroll.

8 I desire to do your will, O my God;
your law is within my heart."

9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly;
I do not seal my lips,
as you know, O LORD.

10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.
I do not conceal your love and your truth
from the great assembly.

11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD;
may your love and your truth always protect me.

12 For troubles without number surround me;
my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
and my heart fails within me.

13 Be pleased, O LORD, to save me;
O LORD, come quickly to help me.

God is good...that is all I have to say.....God is good.

Just Missing Mell...

1 Peter 5:8-11

8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

10And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.11To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.

4/26

This was written by a young man who lost his sister in a car wreck…I put the him in for Mell..

Some days are better than others, the struggles within are a constant struggle. It goes back and forth.

Some days are better than others, laughing, crying, living, dying.

Its a circle, a very exhausting circle.

Continuing in faith, but almost loosing hope.

Some days are better than others.

The enemy pulls one way. He is so strong.

My savior has his arms around me holding me tight.

The enemy shouts “Why didn’t you save him?” and my savior whispers”I did”

He did save Mell from death…He took him to live with Him...

I just miss him...

Cousin Wayne's Letter

This was Wayne's Letter to me after I wrote the goodbye letter to Mell...

Mary,

I wanted to find a quiet time to read this. You could not have expressed your feelings better and Mell loved getting this letter of love from you. Love is not confined by this world and I know your message found its way to him just as your love will bring you again in time to where he is. Of all the things you shared in this world that have to stay behind love is the one thing we get to keep forever if we choose to. Maybe that is why Jesus said to love God and to love one another were the most important things. Love is the keeper. Mell would have loved flying in Alaska but what he loved more was flying with you in Alaska. When I looked at the pictures that you made of Mell in Alaska I looked into his eyes and I felt if I was seeing him for the first time. They say the eyes are the window of the soul and I know that I was looking at a happy contented man and the camera captured it. He was where he wanted to be and he was looking at the person he wanted to be there with. That is pretty special and he knew it too. Now he can never go again to fly in Alaska but he lived that dream and he will remember. You were a big part of that dream and bigger to him than Alaska. Soon I believe you will dream your dreams and one day you will carry them with you. I can see him smiling as you tell him of your adventures. He will take a lot of pride and satisfaction in knowing that the journey that you began together keeps right on going on both sides of the divide. Your doing your best Mary and that being a better Mary than you could have been without your lives together. Mell doing his best Mell and he knows the difference you made in his life right into eternity. I suspect when you meet back up he will ask you the same thing he asked me when I finally found Tocoa airport after an adventure flight to pick him up in the first airplane Falcon Aviation ever had in its inventory to sell. "What took you so long?"

Mary, thanks for making yourself into the perfect soulmate for Mell Hall to meet and fall in love with. He didn't do that often. It took one special lady for that. I know I am right to think that God was looking for just the right two people to compliment each other. I think the camera caught the wisdom of that in both of you. When I look at those pictures of Mell anywhere with you he looks like he is looking at me in the pictures. He was looking at you. I know he loved me too, but he could never look at me quite like that.

Solo Flight(click here to see all videos and pictures)

We started out flying towards the city...down the Hudson River to the Statue of Liberty and back…NJ is amazing! Right outside the city is much wilderness not quite as much as Alaska but beautiful!…this is part of where the Appalachian trail crosses… we did several take offs and landings in grass strips…talked to other pilots and looked at lots of different airplanes…several that I had never seen before, I had to wonder if Mell had seen them? He would have loved it too!

Everything was perfect!

Our take off was amazing…I did not feel one ounce of fear. Not at all during any of the flight!

God was truly with me and I had confidence in my Pilot Christina…I knew that God had hand picked her for this very special flight when I was driving down Old Peachtree and saw the Supercub fly over. I had to stop and call her…knowing I had to go up again with her and in her Supercub!

I had to think how we met in McCarthy AK. God knowing that I only had limited time with my sweet Mell, provided me with a female pilot friend… If I decide to fly in the coming year…she is a great encouragement to me…I can't tell you how many pilots have told me they were flying today because of Mell…she told me how her instructor said she would never be able to land the Super cub...and she is now a legend! "The Lady pilot who flies to Alaska! " and last year alone!

It was strange flying without Mell…I always feel as if I have forgotten something…sometimes I have and sometimes its just that I feel I have forgotten him…I turn around and he is not there…

Sometimes I think I feel his presence and I turn around and actually look. It was that way several times on this flight.

One of my friends said" I can see God and Mell High five-n" and I said "Yes " to that. I know he is proud of me and would say thanks to Christina for taking me up.

Mell thought a lot of her too!