The other day a lady at the gym I had met a few times...pulled me aside to tell me her story about what God had done in her life.(I haven't seen her since)
The parts of her story the I think applied to me:
Don’t let anyone or anything hold you back not even your husband’s death.
He will show me the beauty in this horrible pain.
Its all about trust in Him, continue to move forward, He is in everything and he is our Heavenly Father and even though we cannot see Him He is always with us and helping us and we can talk to Him all of the time.